Day 215

I feel like I have let you down recently, but not without good reason so I'm hoping that you accept my sincere apologies. I recently lost my mother-in-law which has been a very sad time for me and my family. I know that she would have wanted us to not fuss or be sad but it's so hard when someone you love is taken suddenly.
          Since being here last I've had many ups and downs as most of us usually do with this annoying condition, but the good news is that my husband and I are off to the fertility clinic again in the next 2 weeks... I'm feeling a little on edge about this because the last time I went I was told to lose weight, until then they would not help me. This time we are visiting a different hospital and I am hoping they will not be so marrow minded as the other clinic was. My BMI at the time was 56, morbidly obese I know... I have reduced that to 46 and am happy but disappointed for not losing more. I'm always so obsessed with my weight so I am sorry if it's tiring.
Anyways, just thought I'd give you all a hello.
Blessed Be x
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Day 40

It has been so long since posting and not a lot has really happened regarding PCOS. If I am honest I find reading about it, thinking about it and living it completely draining and depressing right now, even as I write this post 

I feel like bursting into tears. I can say that I am changing doctor's surgeries to try and find someone else who will help me. 

          My weight loss has become stale, I have not lost nor gained any weight in the past week or so which can be the hardest thing when you are trying so hard to and not seeing any results. I WILL keep going, I have to show other women that I can do this and that it can be beaten, but not without feeling this way and certainly not without the support from family, friends and YOU! 

          My dear friend Nadine has a blog spot which I find informative. Please take a look as her blogs contain her findings regarding medicine and other PCOS related issues. thediaryofapcosgirl.blogspot.com 

          Thank you all for coming back and giving me strength every day!

Blessed Be! x

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Day 22

I'm not missing.... I'm still around. I have been extremely busy these past few days walking miles and miles. I 2 weeks I have walked 60 miles so far and lost more weight!!! YAY! I am now down to 288LBS, that's 2 Stones lost... or 28LBS

This has helped improve my hormone and sugar levels and I'm feeling less depressed! Will keep you all posted, just a quick one for now to let you know I'm still alive.

Blessed Be! x

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Day 9

A very productive day.... I walked 5 miles with Jade and one of my twin boys today, burned about 600 calories, I really enjoyed walking and talking with my son today, my children give me so much encouragement when we are out, they are amazing! I love you so much. If you are wondering how the heck can I walk that far??? Well on  a flat surface it's not so bad, I took my dog who is so funny, it makes time go faster! I had my son with me so our conversations helped time on a bit too. We took about 2 hours to walk together.
          I used to say I couldn't go out and do the exercise, I didn't have time. But why not go out for a walk as a family? All you need is you and wherever you want to go! I see it this way, if I become more fit and healthy my ability to do more housework increases.... so the hubby can't moan! Hehehe.
          Anyways I have now just completed a 16 minute workout which I have downloaded from the "app store" on my phone. I used to envy those who had one, but seriously you tube is great for that kind of thing. It was supposed to be 20 minutes but I was dead on my feet and did the sensible thing and stopped! The pleasure pain theory is NOT true, the reason you're hurting is cause your body is telling you to stop!
          I weighed myself today and I'm now 20ST 12LBS, losing a total of 24 LBS and 4LBS since I started blogging. Nearly at the 2 stones lost mark!
          Please don't be shy I would love to hear from you, it's you supportive ladies that are keeping me going!

Blessed Be! x
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Day 7

Lots of walking this week has helped me to lose 2 pounds, bringing my total weight loss to 22 pounds. I am really happy that something has helped me shift it this week. I have cut out sugar and that has proven to give me an extra boost. Has anyone else has any successes this week? I'd love to hear about them!
          Anyway it was just a quick blog today as I am having friends round this evening and am cooking at the moment.

Blessed Be! x
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Day 6

After trying to uncover the truth, I think I have found some evidence at last... I need to simplify it though so that I can understand it as well as everyone else. There are a lot of big words, chemical and scientific sections which I haven't got my head around yet, but with help from my husband and dictionary I may be able to explain what I have found. 

          BUT, I can say that I came across a theory, a doctor wrote that individually, the processes we go through... for example losing weight to help ourselves doesn't necessarily help on its own. It has to be combined with Good nutrition, exercise and reduced stress. Which would explain why women who give up trying to conceive, then conceive. If you give up, you are less stressed and this lowers the toxin called serotonin and this alleviates some of the cause of PCOS itself. Does that make sense? 

          I hope that this can give you some hope and I would suggest you aim to lower your stress levels. I will research different ways of managing stress and post my findings tomorrow. 

Blessed Be! x

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Day 5

My hormones have been.... Well.... Moaning! Had a really grumpy day yesterday for no particular reason, but thanks to my husband I'm ok today! I'm so lucky to have him, I don't know how I'd get through most days without him. 

          I have been for a VERY long walk today with Jade and my daughter who's 7, (I hate the word step, but I haven't had any children of my own ....yet!) I have 4 "step" children, they are my world! They are partly the reason for me wanting a child of my own. Fortunately for me, I have been raising them with my husband for 3 years now, and they are such a joy to be with, they make each day different to the last, even if they have raided my cupboards and eaten half a pot of golden syrup!!! (I go through one pot every 12 months normally!) They are good kids, words can't express how much they mean to me. 

          You can tell I'm passionate about my family.... Anyways.... I went for this walk and felt so much better after doing so, I've not weighed myself yet, I'll do that tomorrow. 

          I know I'm rambling on a little so I shall close this blog now. Thank you again for your support, it's motivating me more than you'll know. 

Blessed Be! x

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